The Ugly Side of Ministry & A Giveaway

So, I spent the weekend with around 850 women.  Bless it.  You can’t imagine all the chatter and giggling, the emotions and the tears.  I spent the weekend at Lifeway’s National Women’s Ministry Leadership Forum.  I’ve got to admit when I step back and consider (850 leaders, that are women, in the same building for 3 days) it sounds kind of awful.  If I hadn’t been right in the slap dab middle of it, I’d say that’s too many cooks in the kitchen.  But, can I tell you that it wasn’t even close to awful?  It was so beautiful.  I found myself humbled by the vastness of what God was accomplishing through these women with different backgrounds, different stories, different ages from all over the country coming together with one similar goal.   A heart for God and a heart for women.

I’d love to tell you that a Christian conference, like The Forum, is only beautiful.  I’d love to say that we all held hands the whole time and solved the problems of the world.  I’d love to tell you that 850 Christian women leaders can come together and it isn’t messy.  But, I can’t.  I can’t tell you that it was all beautiful and lovely because there were people at this conference.  There were women suffering the consequences of bad choices, there were women fighting cancer and depression.  There were women with a passion to lead women to Jesus that carry scars from criticism and abuse.  And then there were women that were threatened by the influence and platform of other women.  I know,  because I was one of those women.  I could scream and just about throw something, because I so desperately don’t want that to be true.  I want to be the one that has my head on straight and rejoices because the Kingdom of God is growing.

I know competition happens in the secular world.  There is a need to compete with someone skilled in the same area as you.  There is an expectation to pursue the top spot, to be lifted up among your peers.  It happens at our kid’s soccer game, when one child plays more than another.  Unfortunately, it also happens in the church.  I shake my head when I face this ugly side of ministry.  We’re on the same team.  Yet, we buy into a lie that if someone else succeeds, we have failed.  It’s ridiculous if you think about it.  As far as the church goes, if one of us wins, we all win!  We could analyze the root of the problem until we’re blue in the face.  We could say that it is about insecurity regarding our identity in Christ, we could label it with jealousy or pride.  I could even tell you the bigger problem has to do with a false definition of success.  But all of those are wrapped up in one word–sin.

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The effects of sin have allowed us to pursue our own fame, our own success and our own power.  We don’t readily admit those shortcomings.  Yet, for Christians, in the secular workplace, our kids’ extra-curricular activities and even around other believers, we still struggle with a desire to fulfill our purpose over God’s.

The question becomes then, how do we deal with this sin?  We don’t want to wish failure or destruction on our colleagues, our kids’ friends, or our brothers and sisters in Christ.  So, how did we get here?

I believe it comes from a lack of discipline.  We don’t intentionally allow God to regularly search our heart.  

  Instead of making room for God, we push harder.  We fill our schedules, our closets, our bellies with anything to make us feel in control.  Spiritual disciplines point to the reality that we are not in control.  We desperately need God.  By recognizing our need for God, we long more for His purpose than our own because we realize our’s has left us empty.  

Might I challenge you to start with the discipline of introspection?  Asking God to search your heart, not just today, but every day, maybe every hour.  Introspection can sometimes be ugly.  It is with me. So, don’t allow yourself to forget grace. 

 But let God, point out the areas He longs to change in you.

Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. Psalm 139:23-24

Giveaway: Over the next few weeks, I plan on taking a look at some different spiritual disciplines.  What would you like to know about spiritual disciplines?  Are there any disciplines in particular you would like for me to address?  

Leave a comment with your answer and any thoughts about today’s post and you’ll be entered in a giveaway for Angela Thomas’ book 52 Things Kids Need From a Mom: What Mothers Can Do to Make a Lifelong Difference.  (Even if you aren’t a mom, you can share this book with a mom you love.)  Contest will end at midnight (CST) on Tuesday, November 26.

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