We need each other. A simple enough statement–of course we need each other. I love community. I love the church. I love ministry and I love helping those in need. I don’t, however, love being the one needing someone else.
It’s Okay to Not Be Okay
I’ve convinced myself its not okay for me to not be okay. If I let on that I’m not okay, I’ll just drag others down. No one wants to be around the downer. I want to be the encourager, the girl who has words of life to share. But the reality is I’m not always that girl. I’m the girl who throws her own pity party. The girl who can’t keep all the plates spinning without help.
The last couple of months of my life have been hectic. It’s always hectic but this time I couldn’t manage all the hecticness on my own. I had no choice but to receive help. (I’m sure those who so faithfully stepped in love that I consider myself a forced beneficiary of their kindness.)
Receiving the Blessing
Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate the help. The Enemy, however, has allowed me to believe I am inadequate because I needed help to begin with. Whenever the Enemy starts whispering lies, it is all too easy to listen and believe. I wrestled with the lie and then remembered the God who Provides. Instead of looking at myself I looked to God and I saw His character, I saw His provision. In churchy words, I saw Jehovah Jireh.
Do you need help? Is the load too heavy? You are not inadequate if you have Jesus. You are more than adequate because He is the God who provides, your Jehovah Jireh. He meets our needs but He doesn’t force Himself on us. We have to receive His provision.
Rest in His powerful provision and receive it. Many of us struggle to receive the help God offers through His people because we don’t want to admit we’re not okay.
If you have Jesus, its okay to not be okay.